i am a skyscraper ~♥

Skies are crying, I am watching

Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
there's nothing left of me?

As the smoke clears, I awaken
and untangle you from me
Would it make you, feel better
to watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
but I'm standing on my feet

Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here, watch you disappear
Go run, run, run Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper... ~ Like a skyscraper... ~


- bebek bau -

Before Ur Love ...

I wonder how I ever made it through the day

How did I settle for a world in shades of gray?
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why, and I looked into your eyes
With the world stretched out in front of me and I realized I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you when my heart was in your hands
And I don't know how I survived without your kiss
'Cause you've given me a reason to exist

And I don't know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me just in time

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived before your love





- bebek bau -

Do U Know It ??

If a girl cries in front of u
It means that she couldn't take it anymore
If u take her hand
She would stay with u for the rest of ur life
If u let her go
She couldn't go back to being herself anymore

A girl won't cry easily
Except in front of the person
Who she loves the most
She becomes weak

A girl won't cry easily
Only when she loves u the most
She puts down her ego

Guys, if a girl cries because of u
Please hold her hands firmly
She's the one who would stay with u
For the rest of ur life

Guys, if a girl cries because of u
Please don't give her up
Maybe because of ur decision
U ruin her life

When she cries right in front of u
Whe she cries because of u
Look into her eyes
Can u see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling ?

Think...
Which other girls have cried with purity and sincerity
In front of u and because of u ?

She doesn't cry because she is weak
She doesn't cry because she wants any sympathy or pity
She cries because crying silently is no longer possible

Guys, think about it...
If a girl cries her heart out to u and all because of u
It's time to look back on what u've done to her
Only u who will know the answer

Consider it because one day
It maybe too late for regrets
It maybe too late to say "I'm Sorry"

- bebek bau -

The Very Best of Marriages

ARE MADE BY BEST OF FRIENDS
WHO FACE TOGETHER, HAND IN HAND,
THE GOOD & BAD LIFE SENDS
THEY AREN'T AFFRAID TO SHARE
THE DEEPEST FEELINGS OF THE HEART,
AND RESPECT EACH OTHER'S NEED
TO SOMETIMES SPEND SOME TIME APART
THEY SUPPORT EACH OTHER FAITHFULLY
WHEN TROUBLES COME THEIR WAY,
THEY DON'T BLAME IN HASTE
BUT SHOW LOVE IN WHAT THEY SAY
THEY MAKE MARRIAGE,
LIKE TRUE FRIENDSHIP
FULL OF THINGS THAT SHOW THEY CARE,
AND THEY FIND A LOT OF HAPPINESS
IN ALL THE LOVE THEY SHARE

~ AMANDA BRADLEY ~

WITHOUT YOU !!

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
'Cause lately all we do is fight
And everytime it cuts me deeper
'Cause something's changed
U've been acting so strange
And it's taking its toll on me
It's safe to say that i'm ready to let u leave
Without u i live it up a little more everyday
Without u i am seeing myself so differently
I didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end
When i watched u walk away well i never thought i'd say
I'm fine without u
Called u up 'cause it's been long enough
And u said that u were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together
Without u !! Without u !! Without u !!
I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather...~

- bebek bau -

U are Forever My Son, Aldriel...

First, i wanna greet u all
MARRY XMAS 2009 & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010
Chase the new horizons chingu o^.^o
Gomasupnida, dear everybody who has made my 2009's colorful
Mianhae, dear everyone who has been disappointed in 2009
Kamsahamnida, for u who have disappointing me in 2009
Welcome 2010 with new spirit & new commitment
No more fear about the future & blame for the pass
Jesus be with u everyone. JBU ^.^

Second, i wanna share more about Aldriel, my son
He is mine, the best son i ever had
How do i live without u, i want to know?
Everything seemed dark since u left me here
How do i love u, miss u, need u, wanna hug & kiss u Aldri
From the heaven up there, u can see how does my life
Don't u know, mommy always miss u
and hope u come to my dream as often as possible
Nobody can't understand what i feel
Except u, daddy, & Father
ALL OF U ARE THE BEST and never be gone or forgotten

Will i be as happy as before? Just wait & see
My life journey hasn't over. There's only hope. :)

- bebek bau -

God Makes Everythings on Its Time ^^

Woo.. it would be nice if we live in peaceful earth.
No one annoying & disturbing our life, but full of love.
But it is a paradox life, the same way that Jesus did.
All we know that GOD is the source of love, peace, joy, etc.
Sometimes i feel God is unfair, like i do the sucks life.
But i realize, it's absolutely W.R.O.N.G !!!!!
God gives us so many "EXAMS" not for laying us down.
It because HE loves us too deep.
Like what i say, it's paradox baby.

LOOK !!! This is a great picture.
God accompanies HIS son everytime.
He listens what HIS son talk about.
He does the same thing to us.
He never let us stuck alone.
He will always be with us whenever we want.
He always hears our "heart shout out".
In a worst time, i am sure that God in me.
Never let me alone, let me down, or doesn't care anything.
I BELIEVE that God will show me a BIG CREATION.

God makes everything on its time.
I do believe it !!! Amen.

I Love Jesus whereever i go.
I Love Jesus as long as i live.
I Love Jesus no matter what happen to me.
I Love Jesus whoever i am inside.
I LOVE JESUS ETERNALLY
and i believe that ...
Jesus Loves me whereever i go.
Jesus Loves me for good.
Jesus Loves me no matter whan happen to me.
Jesus Loves me whoever i am inside.
JESUS LOVES ME ETERNALLY

- bebek bau -

MIXED DAY MOOD ^_^

Hmm, gimana yaa memulai ceritanya..??
Gini deh, hari ini kita ujian akhir
BLOK SIKLUS HIDUP
Jujur aje ye, ne soal ujian cukup bikin pala g muter.
SEMUA KASUS BOOOO !!! BUJET DAH !!!
Apalagi soal ilmu kejiwaan ama anatomi nya.
MANTABH SURANTAP !!!
Ampe pas uda beres ujian, semua ekspresi terpancar.
Aneh2 dan ga jelas semua, hahaha
Bahas soal pun uda pada pasrah & yaaaaa biarlah berlalu.
But i thank GOD, cause of HIS BLESSINGS
I could passed my KKD examination. ^^
Semoga ujian akhir blok ini, target g kecapai. Amin.
Abis ujian, kita gila2an di depan mailshop
ama di samping gedung FK. hahahaha

PERSONIL HARI INI ADALAH ...
♥ Riana ♥ Kame ♥ Vany ♥ Winda ♥ Melly
♥ CL ♥ Catherina ♥ Deanna ♥ Stella ♥ Grace
♥ Ina ♥ Ikke ♥ Astrid ♥ Luana

Kita urus keperluan masing2 sebelum pergi main ^^
After that, we were going to TAMAN ANGGREK MALL.
Tujuan utama adalah nonton Surrogates
Studio 1 XXI @ 12.45 pm
Nae Kame Vany Winda Astrid ngantri
CL Ikke Catherina Melly ke HERO & Gramedia
After that, kita maen TEKKEN 6 dulu di XXI
MANTABH BRO !!! i Like that.. ^^,b
Eh blom beres g maen, movie nya uda mo mulai
Padahal g mase ada credit maen
TT_________TT bete banget deh..
Akhirnya okeii dee g masuk dengan berat hati.
Ahh ternyata abis itu g BETE ABIS DAH !!! =.=
^^" g rasa orang2 tau g menyukai seat 7
even i am not sitting at 7th.
Tapi ywd laaah, maksain juga ga mungkin dapet. hahahha
Ga ada yg mo ngase c. huff.. NASIB ^^"

Surrogates not bad lha film nya, mayan seru ^^
Dari situ ke Duta Suara, tempat lagu2 gitu
Awalnya cuma nemenin Vany mo beli lagu2 slow.
Eh koq g malah jd tertarik 1 judul
"LOVE 101, 101 WAYS TO SAY I LOVE YOU"
Beli lah paket itu di mana lagu2 nya enak2 ^^
Ada 6 paket CD, jadi lagunya ada 101 ^^
MANTAB BANGET DEH !!!
Harganya juga booo... Abis duit makan g seminggu itu.
Ahh tp dudut tu c mbak nya
Katanya tinggal 1 padahal mase banyak, goblok jg g. XD

Dari situ, kita go to Cafe Strawberry
G tuh lupa jalan ke sana, cuma pernah lewat aja
Yaa g nelp sepupu g, eh malah diketawain.. =='a
Sepupu dodol, ( DEAR SIMON, MY COUSIN ) hahahahaha
Kita pun menggila di sana dengan games2 yg ada
KACAU ABIS !!! HANCUR !!! PARAH !!!
Hahahahahaha... Bener2 uda kae orang kelaperan & gila
Punya temen jg koq jail yaa.. =='a
Temen yg aneh, ( DEAR TONI, MY "S" ) hahahahaha
Gokil abis dah pokonya..

Pas pulang, g nelp sepupu g bwt nanya jalan pulang
Padahal itu jalanan yg sering g lewatin *tolol banget hahaha
Ga aneh dy ampe ngetawain g PUAS BANGET !!!
Nyampe rumah tinggal g nikmatin lagu2 indah kuuuu
Nikmati DVD horror yg ku beli
Nikmati semua yg terjadi sepanjang hari ini.. :)
ALL NICE ^^,b

Walaupun ujian bikin mumet
Meskipun Rakercul 2 tidak jadi terlaksana
KITA TETAP ANAK CUCUL & GILA
HIDUP FK UNTAR 2008 ~ 0^_^0




- bebek bau -

-- The ABC's of Friendship --

Always be honest, would you want THEM to lie to you?
Be there when they need you, or you may wind up alone
Cheer them on, we all need encouragement now and then
Don't look for their faults, even you have none
Encourage their dreams, what would we be without them?
Forgive them, you just MAY do something wrong sometimes
Get together of them, mystery loves company, so does glee
Have faith in them, the human animal is remarkable
Include them, you may need to be included sometimes
Just be there when they need you
Know when they need a hug, and couldn't you use one?
Love them unconditionally, that is the ONLY condition
Make them feel special, because aren't we ALL special?
Never forget them, who wants to feel forgotten?
Offer to help, and know when "NO, THANKS" is just politiness
Praise them honestly and openly
Quitely disagree, noise NO's make enemies
Really listen, a friendly car is a soothing balm
Say, you're sorry, don't let them assume it
Talk frequently, communication is important
Use good judgement
Verbalize your feelings
Wish them luck, hopefully good !
X'amine your motives, before you "help" out
Your word's count, use them wisely
Zip your lips when told a secret

- bebek bau -

DOWA JUSEYO !!!!! >_<

Han-gugmallo malhapsida.. =.='a ..btw i'm not korean.
FIRST, i wanna say that my FB account has been come back.. NICE ^^
but all of my fans pages & groups were also deleted.. gggrrrrr.......!!!

Exactly, it's not the topic for this post..
I only wanna shout "DOWA JUSEYO !!!!! "
"KHUNILNASSKUNA !!!!!"
What are they mean?? Find by urself.

Fiuhh.. *take a deep breathe*
What the f*** !!! Hey what's goin' on ??
KOENGJANGI BOKJABHAKUNYO !!!
I feel like shout out loud over the mountain..
Hahahaha.. Can i realize it.? I only wanna throw away my fears..
PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY
Sometimes i want my prayers are answered by HIM.
Sometimes i want all of my fears are gone far away.
B . U . T
Sometimes i'm too afraid for facing the truth that will be come.

Eventhough the situations are so complicated
I still thank HIM for saving & keeping me till this time.
HE has commanded people surround me to take care of me.
I want everything looks good.
BUT WHAT??? MUOYEYO??? Hahahaha.. IMPOSSIBLE..
"Life is never flat." I'm in line with it. Hahahaha.. XD

I wondered the earth is full with peace, love, & kind-hearted people.
It would be nice. ^^, but maybe it just a dream.
All of them can be found in HEAVEN, GOD'S KINGDOM.. ^^
But u should know that GOD won't let u fall down,
GOD won't let u feel alone,
GOD won't let u unhappy or upset..
Everything will be fine in GOD. Amen.

Hmm.. Jigum myot siyeyo.?? @_@ it must be midnight.
LAST, i thank GOD for sending me a mate.
Ku sarami nuguimnikka.?? Hahahahaha.. Of course my soulmate.. XD
and i hope i can shout out loud my feeling over the mountain.
URI KATCHI KAPSIDA !!! ^^
God saves us. Love u all. Mwaaahh ♥♥♥

I have a song that can be a strength for me. ^^
► LET SING THE SONG ♫♪♫♪♫♪

You feel that you’re lonely
It doesn’t prove that you are alone
You feel that no body wants you
It doesn’t mean that no one cares about you

Listen to the words i say
For i will always by your side
You mean everything to me
And i will never leave you
Cause i love you so

If you think that you’re nothing
Before me you are something beautiful
You think that you can’t do anything
But you can do a lot of things with me

So listen to the words i say
For i will always by your side
You mean everything to me
And i will never leave you
Cause i love you so

When i say that i love you
It means i'll give the best for you
When i say that i love you
I will give everything for you

No more fears about the future
And blame for the past
I’ll give everything
When i say that i love you

I want you to know that i died for you
I want you to know that i’ll give all my life for you
When i say that i love you..
Say that i love you..

When i say that i love you.. i realy do..

- bebek bau -